Coming to my birthday!

29NoV 2007, 2312

Today is a Thursday and less than one more hour will be my birthday le. This morning I fetched my sister to her sch which is in ngee ann poly. Its really quite a long journey eh. She was going to be late le or else I also won't fetch her there. The petrol and diesel prices have increased ah. 1 litre = $1.53 man. I hope that it will not keep increasing or else next time no one will drive le! On the way home at around lornie road, I saw in front of me, vehicles are driving quite slow so I guessed maybe traffic police was there. In the end, in front was really one traffic police followed by another one around 50 metres away. Luckily I didn't drive very fast or go second lane or else I would have been caught. In the afternoon, I met up with xiao hui because she wanted to pass me back the book, we went to watch movie too. Its been the second time I watched enchanted le eh but it is really a nice movie. After the movie, we went to have sakae sushi at city link. Think I'm very bad eh, she haven't eat finished and I ask her to go. I need to hurry home to have dinner with my family so we said farewell in the MRT. I think she must be quite sad to treat me for the sushi ah. haha.. Must treat her back next time le. Very very soon will be my 20th birthday le, I really wondered if she knows its my birthday. Though I know she is online but I really don't know want to tell her what. She seems to be so obsessed with her work. We are really drifting further and further apart le..

WHY DIDN'T I!!!

28 Nov 2007, 0833

Haiz my daddy yesterday asked me to wake him up as early as 7am in the end when I woke up, its already 8 something. So I rushed out to his room and saw that he has already waken up. I'm really really very upset. Why people give me such a great responsibility yet I cant fulfill it? Actually I believe I can wake up early instead de because I was having a dream just before I woke up, this dream was just something I hope for every night in my sleep. I dreamt that on my actual day of my birthday, my group of friends and diana's group of friends were out to celebrate my birthday for me. We seem to have a enjoyable day and she always seem to joke alot with her friend. But why? why must I dream of her when I have such a responsibility to carry. I'm really don't have mood for anything le even if its my birthday. haiz..

These days

26,27,28 NoV2007, 2300

Hmmz.. gonna update what I do in all these three days.. Actually it also nothing much to do in the camp. Most of the time, we did our own stuffs. I tried to spend most of time reading the books I borrowed from the library. Got one time, we played soccer together eh, I'm not really good at it de so most of the time when I play, I only can be keeper ah. Sometime can only play for the fun of it only. Today KC woke me up at around 0345 to watch soccer eh. The television reception in the man mass was really freak up eh. We had to try alot of times before we can get the reception right. I was really tired lying on the sofa and watch but I still managed to watch until half time with him but the second half, I dozed off le and left him watching alone eh! I'm so bad.. haax. In the end inter milan still scored 3 goal ah. That's a big lost man. Today KC and I booked out together and I accompany him to go ngee soon camp to get his dental appointment but in the end he cant get it because the MO have not typed out the referrer letter eh. So he decided to go home first. When we was walking out, it suddenly rain eh then we have to run and we were all drenched eh.. haiz.. was missing her so much, two more days and it will be my birthday le. I know she is unable to celebrate with me. Ji sheng has chicken pox too and he can't go out. Though I know he already asked other guys le but I still donno should I go a not. haiz..

Not enough sleep!

25 Nov 2007, 1910

I woke up at 10 something in the morning, my mother was already not at home, she was on her way to Airport and I decided to wash the car. I wash once in every two weeks. Was actually quite lazy to wash de but no choice its my responsibility to do that. Hmmz.. don't know why sleep for 7hours still quite tired. When I reached home, bath le then start to read my storybooks, went online at the same time too. Then suddenly one of my friend chat with me, we talked about his poly stuffs, and found out his gpa was 3.5 and its consider quite good in Poly actually. So I asked him if I wanted to get good gpa, do I need to chiong for it. He told me there's someone told him, thou need to study smart and not only study hard. At around 2 plus, I went to ssdc to find Antx and we went out for lunch together. Its been a year since I met him le ah! His pattern is still the same lolz. Time really flies very fast, we are getting older and older le and I believe we have become more mature not like in the old days! haha think of it really funny ah! We went to Amk to have our lunch and I was thinking if she wakes up already ? Sometimes I really want to sms her but wonder will she think that I am very irritating? I guess I won't ask her about relationship stuff again ba. Guess I should know her more first instead. If next year I really go into Poly, I must definately study smart and hard. I believe I will be somebody one day. Though I'm not really a intelligent guy but I believe I got other virtues that can someday be use up not only in working life but also in all the places I go to.

A long Day

24 Nov 2007, 0155

It's been a long day today went out in the morning to fix the punctured tire. Had to pay $90 for it. Its nearly like my one week pay. Finished fixing at around 10am plus and I fetched my mother to the salon and I drove to Kwang wai shiu to do volunteer work. When I reached there, it was still early so I have to wait for my friend to come and he told me he would b3 late. In the end, I waited half an hour for him ah! Everytime I got to wait for people de! We went to Ward 5 after he came. The old folks remember us because we often go there. Some of them are actually disabled, some had a stroke and can't actually move their hands or legs. One of the uncle who live there temporarily told me that it's very good of me to go there and help. Though he losted one of his leg but I could see that he was very optimistic. I think if I were him, I might not have the strong courage to face it. We pushed two old folks out for a stroll. Then there's this cantonese folk who likes to say story about the history. Kc and I are hokkien dialect and we were unable to understand what's he trying to say so another folk who is able to listen both hokkien and cantonese translated to us about his story. That's was quite interesting. After volunteering, I went to fetch my sister because she wants to go compass point to buy something so I let her drive. The chance to be a passenger is always good man haha.. She went there to buy her bras so I went other place to walk and thought of asking my secondary schools friends out for movie. The first person I sms to was farzana eh, but she never reply haha because she was sleeping eh.. But in the end we still manage to meet up with her and a few of my friends for dinner. I drove them to upp thomson there to try the prata but the services were quite bad eh.. but happily I saw a actress la! She's too pretty le, I even feel like drooling lolz jk. Actually was quite happy Farzana was able to go with us. She's quite a humorous person by nature and she was from my class last time. Just thrilled to see my own classmate. After the gathering, I fetched Farzana home and not sure whether to go watch movie or soccer. Sometimes its very diffcult to make a small decision. In the end, we watched soccer eh but watched for the first 10 mins, Bolton scored 1 and I was totally disappointed ah! By the time I decided to watch movie eh, I recommend sf to watch enchanted. That show is really a fantastic show eh quite alot of funny scenes too. I was really tired after that movie and we went home. I was refering to diana's msg that she sent me eh. She was watching movie too at this late hour, I'm really worrying about her. Haiz..

Really tired!

24 Nov 2007, 0404

I am really tired now but I still need to say out what I gonna said in this blog. I really wondered why? why she let me revived my heart and broke my heart again. I went to find her at around 9 something and hope that she will be able to return at 10pm. In the end she went to her friend's house. I didn't blame her for that at all. This is her own personal stuff and its out of my hands. I still have not make the tire so I didn't drive there instead I took a bus from my house to there and went to internet to search for which bus that goes her block nearby. In the end, I found it was 165 but have to walk a distance. I skipped my favourite tv drama just because I want to take a look at her. That time I really feel the urge to do anything for her and I donno why I seem to like her so much.. I kept waiting at her block downstair wait and wait and wait.. going to buy drinks, read new paper read all the papers, in my heart I thought I will be able to see her soon very soon because I know she would be back soon but hour by hour past.. In the end she asked my to go back first because she was still at there so I decided to go back home. What angered and jealous me was that she told me she was having dinner with a guy just now. I was totally stunned at the moment, while I was waiting for her, another guy was with her.. I always thought she goes out with her group of girl friends but I was really shocked. By then I decided to walk all the way home from her house. She knows i'm jealous and she told me i'm her buddy and he is her best friend. Maybe I'm feeling a bit inferior ba.. maybe.. I really need a rest le.. tomolo is still a long day..

Moderate day

23 Nov 2007 , 18:09

Its really a normal day for me. Waking up early in the morning went online and check ite admission date for my army friend and next year Poly admission for myself. Few more months left to ORD so life in the Army is really quite slack and I'm clearing my leave for these two days. Every morning will be quite the same for me as I often go to market with my mother. Sometimes I wonder "Am I too fillial le?" In the afternoon was planning to go fishing with my friend de but its low tide so we postponed it. In the end I went swimming. Just now when I was online, I saw her online also so I managed to chat awhile with her. I know she must be busy with her stuffs ba.. So all the while we never really said anything. I know she only wanna concentrate on the studies and family, what I can do was only like her silently in my heart. Come to think of it there must also be fate for the both of us. Or else no matter how much I may talk to her sms her in the end I also cant see her. Though we were in the same school together and a couple back then it was all due to fate ba I guessed. For now we are doing different things at a different time. I'm really confused... forget it then.. back to the today.. at around 4 something when my mother and I went to have dinner we intended to go to ESSO and pump the car first. At first I try to pump the first tire, there's no problem until the second tire I tried to pump and there's wasn't any signal on the machine and I could see the tire was like spoilted or sth.. After a few tries, the tire losses more and more air and it looks like its really punctured but still can drive eh. I didn't manage to change a new one because it was past the working hours le so I intended to wait until tomolo. I was actually thinking on my way home. Driving a car is not really easy, there's really alot of stuffs that gotta pay for and handle. Though I'm not the one who paying for it but I'm putting myself in that person's shoes.